LAST BLOG :(

I have a lot of things that I could name that are very important to me; my family, my friends, my jobs, school, having fun and living life to the fullest extent. Everything and everyone in my life is important to me, I truly do appreciate all that I have and I hope that I do not take too much for granted. To be more specific I would say that the top three important things to me are; #1 my relationship with my mom #2 my jobs and #3 having fun. I try not to take life too seriously, we only live once so I like to keep that in mind at all times. I love working so that is something I enjoy, some may think I am crazy for having three jobs but its good to be independent, I can support myself and I like having money to do the things that I want. My relationship with my mom is the only relationship that I am positive will never change, friends can come and go but if anything ever comes in between my mom and me, I will be destroyed. I am so attached to her it is not even funny, I cannot go on trips for more than two days without feeling anxious to go home and be with my mom. I went on vacation to Paris for a week with two of my girlfriends and have never felt so sad to be away from my mom in my life. My friends make fun of me for how attached I am but it’s the most important thing to me that I have. I honestly do not know what I would do without her she’s means everything to me. Generally I believe that being a nice person and friendly to everyone is very important, I try to be smiley and friendly in every situation just because I like when people are friendly to me. I like to be an approachable person or at least I hope I am when it comes to meeting new people, my mom has always taught us manners and to be polite, first impressions are a pretty big deal in my family. I am trying to think of what else is important to me, I guess the obvious, school, being successful when I grow up, having a healthy life, and being able to take care of myself. Everything in life is important but nothing should be taken too seriously. Being comfortable is also a big thing for me, not even in clothes or how I look but being in a group or at a place I always need to be comfortable otherwise I know I won’t be having a good time. Making memories is a huge part of my life; in order to do this I always have my camera with me. All of my friends know that somehow or another they will see pictures from me. Whenever I take a picture and my friends sigh and groan I say “Come on guys, it’s a memory!”

courage

Courage in my eyes is defined as something not everyone has. Not everyone is born with courage. Courage to me is when you do something that you know something bad could happen but you do it for a good reason. This could mean something as simple as sticking up for someone or yourself in a situation. To have courage is to not be afraid, showing people that you’ll do whatever it takes and there is no backing down. Courage does not just have to be in adults, anyone can have courage but I feel that it always comes with experience, for some people there are not many times when you have to be courageous but for some others it is an everyday lifestyle. Courage can be anything from a person chasing down a bank robber, because there is always a chance of getting seriously hurt, or a person who is mentally challenged going down the street and bearing people constantly staring and looking or even calling names. Everyone has different reasons to be courageous and different times when they are, it is a good thing but I think sometimes it gives people a little too much backbone. Soon they start to think that they can do anything when that is not always the case. I do know a lot of courageous people or who are in their own ways but I would have to say that my Uncle Brian is the most courageous person in my life. My Uncle is a fire fighter and he risks his life everyday a work to save other people who he does not even know. That takes a lot a strength and will power to do. Going to work everyday and having in the back of my head that it could be my last is something that I would never want to volunteer myself. He has had a really tough life but being as strong as he is, he can now give back to his community by helping out the citizens when they are in danger. It is funny but he is kind of like a super hero (or at least he thinks that way). His job is a healthy confidence booster and I am very proud of him. Living through the things that he has been through would be extremely difficult to stay positive and be so courageous. He loves what he does and would not change it for the world. I think that that is exactly what courage is, when a person does something out of the bottom of their heart for the better when the outcome could be good or bad. There is always a fifty percent chance of it going smoothly or not so smoothly. After years of experience everyone’s courage probably raises a little bit I would think. I cannot say that I have had a lot of times when I needed to be courageous, but the few times that I did it was a big deal but things worked out.

memories

I have a lot of early memories that have always stuck with me and that I remember in detail. But there is one that I always bring up, it was one time when I was maybe three or four, I have no idea why I remember this because it is not even interesting, but I was in my living room watching TV and my grandma was sitting at the dining room table. As she was sitting at the table all I remember is running back and forth from the TV to the table, and each trip she would feed me a spoonful of seaweed. Now I do not think there is much more to this memory, I think the lights were dim, so maybe it was nighttime and I do not remember anyone else. Also another time when I was really young, maybe around the age of four, and my brother and I were in my basement climbing pillows and making forts, so we brought all of our supplies upstairs and putt pillows across the stand where the lamp is and the couch. So after a few trials we were crossing the pillows like professionals, when all of a sudden my brother pulled the pillow from underneath me and I fell, and my mom’s favorite lamp broke. My mom is not a mean person, but at this moment in time I was scared for my brothers’ life. That is actually really dramatic, but being four I knew my brother was in a lot of trouble, I think his punishment was taking away his power rangers or something of that sense. I remember when this occurred my mom was in the bathroom, down the hall and when we heard her footsteps we were shaking. It was not so much that I thought we would get in trouble, but it was her favorite lamp. My mom never did anything to deserve that, it might be materialistic for most people but there was sentimental value. I am trying to think of other significant memories around this time… maybe when I was learning how to ride a bike without training wheels. This was a long process for me. I got discouraged more than two times, falling down and keep trying is not my thing. I figured why would I need to ride a bike anyways? So it was a day we were having a barbeque in the backyard and my Uncle Thommy brought me a new bike from, I don’t know, maybe a garage sale? (Yeah, “new bike”) My first bike without training wheels was black and lime green, it may have been a Ninja Turtles theme as well. So I got onto my new bike wearing a helmet, shorts and a tank top, and my Uncle Thommy was holding the back of my seat as I peddled down the dirt road. Thinking that I was able to ride alone without his help, he let go of my seat. I felt okay at first then noticed nothing good was about to happen. I live on a corner so there is a house to my right on the other side of the dirt road; I crashed right into a pile of concrete! My whole body was a bruise, I was crying as blood was gushing out of my bare legs. My uncle felt so bad and needless to say it took me a while to get my confidence back up.

privacy

Privacy is very important to me. No matter where I am I need to know that there is always a place to be private and alone if I need. Everyone deserves a little alone time without other people knowing what is going on or their business. I am a much closed person; it takes a lot for me to open up to a person, so what is my business I would rather not tell anyone and keep it to myself. In my life I feel as though I do get plenty of privacy. When it comes to getting dressed and things like that, there has to be a lock on the door. Most of my family and friends know that doors have to be locked and that when I need alone time just let me be. Whenever I get into bad moods I like to just sit in my room and take a nap, or listen to music, and in order to get out of my bad mood successfully, I need the door locked to be alone. It may sound strange but ever since I was little I always lock my doors; whether it be my bedroom, bathroom, house, car, locks are important. To me a lock reassures me that its private and some people really do not care whether a lock is on the door, or even if the door is closed. Now I do share my room with my sister, but there really is never a time when we are both home in the room, besides at night going to bed. I am not crazy about privacy, that’s the only big thing is getting dressed and what not. There is really no time in school when it is necessary to be private. I do not really have any serious secrets, but if I ever do I do not think it is anyone else’s business. There are no such things as secrets if you tell someone. The fact that someone else has the ability to let the world know your “secret” is not privacy at all. If something happens to that friendship they could always use that against you, whether it’s your best friend or boyfriend/girlfriend, I do not understand why people risk that? A secret is something that is only known by you otherwise you can’t be mad if the person you told spreads word around, it is your own fault for giving out the information. Especially in high school it is hard to keep your business only your business, rumors and stories spread like wildfire so it is much easier to just stay quiet. All in all there are times when privacy is necessary and others when it is optional, but always having the option is more comforting to those who feel this way. Also I think that it changes with age. Maybe when you’re younger you don’t care as much and you grow into a more private person or reversed. I think as I get older I am more comfortable with the people around me than when I was little.

curriculum

If I had to create a curriculum for kids my age at a school I would put classes in everyone’s schedule that they are more interested in. If a student wants to be a dentist, there is no need for history classes or cooking. This could be a positive curriculum change because having each student study specifically what they are looking to do in the future will benefit when it comes time to go to college. Instead of students going in to school undecided and spending money on classes that they may not even need for their once decided major they can jump right into necessary classes and credits. Most kids do not know exactly what they want to do as a career, so high school should be where they figure it out. In high school there should be more options and career decisions. Students should pick specific courses related to any major and see if they would like to continue it each marking period, this will be a good experience and very helpful. I would leave the school time the same, 7:15-1:30 I think this time is very convenient for all. It allows kids to have after-school jobs, or still early enough to do homework and/or hangout with friends. I think the school year should start September 1st and end in May 1st. By the time kids get to high school all of the basics are already taught. Reading and writing are two of the first things that we learn as kids. I do not think that my curriculum would involve the basics; if some one does not know how to read or write then they should not be attending high school in the first place. Gym classes should be optional because many of the kids do not participate in the first place so that is a waste of the teachers time, they should have classes of kids who really want to participate. Gym classes do not get kids in shape anyway, it is more of a free fun time, we do whatever activities we want and just enjoy it, and it’s not like going to workout. I think that there should be homework in every class. Homework really is helpful to refresh what you learned earlier in the day. A lot of kids complain about homework, but I never really get any, not that I wish I did, but I know that it is a good thing to work on. Especially going to college, it’s going to be a reality check. High school is ridiculously easy and I do not think that any of us are prepared for what is coming. College is going to be a big step from high school so I would like to make high school more focused on that transition. The homework would just be a review, nothing too crazy. I would understand that students do not have all night to do homework, they have other priorities. Actually maybe I would assign homework every other day. Kids can not have homework everyday because it gets old quick and that would not last long.

music

To me music is always a good way to get into a great mood. Whenever I am really moody or just cranky all I need is to listen to music, I do not know why but I love listening to my music. Music helps me to concentrate during certain times, like every time I clean my room I have to have my iPod blasting, while I sing my heart out, it makes cleaning go by so much faster. I can not think of a car ride when I have not had the radio on or my favorite CD in. the music I listen to has to have, my opinion, of a good beat. I can tell by the introduction to a song whether or not I will listen through the whole thing. I love pop and anything I can dance or bop my head to. I’m not a huge fan of country but there are a few songs that can keep my vocals screeching. I do no know what it is about music that I love, may of my friends always know that if you’re in my car, the music stays on and gets turned up, it keeps me happy, which may sound strange but I do not know what I would do without it. Is there any evidence or statistic showing that music helps moods? Because I know that it helps a lot with me. I wish that I enjoyed all types of music but I tend to stay close to hip-hop and pop, fast music, I am not a fan of slow songs, it doesn’t go with my personality. I like happy songs, not sappy love songs, or anything sad. Music is supposed to be encouraging and uplifting so why listen to sad slow songs? I think music really does distract me from what is really going on. It makes cleaning fly bye, driving time goes quick, it gives me something to focus on other than what is really happening. Sometimes it can be too much of a distraction like if I am doing homework or at work it can just create more chaos. At one of my jobs we always pick our favorite CD’s for the day and just keep them on repeat, but more often then not we become extremely obnoxious, singing and playing with the radio when we should be helping customers. I guess that there are good and bad in everything that is around us, but music is one of the better things that I have in my life. Singing is a whole other story, I love to sing, it is one of my favorite things to do. All of my friends know how loud I can be and how I always sing. Whether I am working, driving, walking around a store or down the school halls I will always be singing lyrics from a song or I will be making up my own. Now this does not mean I am good, my mom diagnosed me as tone deaf, but this doesn’t stop me. Music will always be a part in my life no matter where I go and I am thankful for that. It is the only cure I have to a bad mood.

risks

I would not consider myself a “risk taker”. Most of the time when people take risks it does not turn out as planned. I have never done anything that bad in my life, maybe the biggest risk I have taken has been… coming home a few minutes past curfew to see what my boundaries are ,since then I have not come home past curfew. Some people like the adrenaline rush, not knowing what is going to happen next, while others like knowing they are safe wherever they may be. That is the type of person I am. I like having the security of knowing that I am safe and that there is no way I could be getting caught up into any sort of trouble. Trouble is not my thing, I do not enjoy testing the waters or being a rebellious kid, I like to stay in the lines and not break rules. Rules and boundaries are there for a reason and I like to stick to it. The most dangerous thing I have ever been involved in was a car accident my freshman year with six or my close friends. Being a dumb freshman a few of us decided to go for a drive with a junior boy and we ended our fun car ride around a tree, car totaled. No one, luckily, was seriously hurt, but that could have turned out horrible. None of us were wearing seat belts and I did not know if the driver had been drinking or taking pills, it was unknown. So that was the most serious risk I have ever taken, besides that it has just been silly little things like at sleepovers we would sneak out for a few hours. Socially I feel like I take risks more often than not. I am always myself and I can be very loud or quiet in different situations, depending on how my attitude is that day can be a risk. Some days I feel more carefree than others, I could care less who was around me or what anyone thinks of me, but other times it is the complete opposite, I could be the most timid girl you’ve ever met. Academically I do not take many risks, I can not be risky in that field. In most classes I either do really good and I try hard if I am interested or I am laid back. Everyone has different views on what is risky and what is not. I know my boundaries for myself and I always think before I make decisions of what my mom would think. Before many decisions or anything that I may do I always say to myself, would I do this if my mom was here? Or what would mom think about this? It is very important to me to keep my mom proud of me and I would be crushed if I ever disappointed her. I never want to let her down and she has pretty high standards to why bother risking our relationship?