Alone

I feel as though I am in the middle, I love being with people and interacting but then again I love to be alone. I feel more independent when I am alone, maybe not even doing anything specific, but just knowing I can be satisfied without depending on another human being makes me happy. I rarely feel scared alone, I usually get nervous when I am home alone after a scary movie, or driving down dark roads, but other than that it never tends to bother me. I look at myself as an approachable person, I like meeting new people and just being friendly to others. All three of my jobs involve interacting with customers, parents, or kids and I think I am pretty good at it. When I am alone that usually means I am home, so I like to catch up on my reality shows, watch a movie, or find something to do. Most of the time I clean the house if no one is home, I don’t know why but every time my mom goes away I find myself cleaning my room so my mom is happy when she gets back. No matter where I am or who I am with I can always find something fun to do or that keeps my interest. When people are always dependent on being with another person even if they are just running out to the store real quick, it bothers me. You can’t always depend on other people; you need to be able to do your own thing. I feel this way because it doesn’t bother me to walk in the mall alone or do anything by myself. On the other hand my brother has a girlfriend who can’t do anything without him. She is so attached to him all day- every day. It is really annoying. That is all she has, my brother and it’s pathetic to me. You need to be able to support yourself before helping others. So being alone resembles independence, and trust. When my mom goes away and leaves me home alone, it shows she can trust me and that I can’t take care of myself. I really love being alone when I am in a bad mood, or when I just wake up I don’t like to talk to anyone. Depending on how I wake up in the morning will tell how my mood will be during the say. If my brother wakes me up, rare occasions, I will most likely be in a bad mood and would like to be left alone. But, if my mom wakes me up things should be good. My brother isn’t good at waking people up; he takes the blankets off and shakes you, not a good way to start the day. That is really the only time when I need to be left alone, otherwise it doesn’t really matter. I could go either way with this question. I think everyone needs time alone, and time with others, it should be split up evenly.